Lucy in the sky.

(Entry By Sam)
Hey Jude,
Today is the first day, it's not easy, it was especially waking up to no picture, no good morning, no words at all. I missed you and I cried while I ate, I cried while I washed my hair and eventually gathered myself. I went to school and I got through six classes, then my toothache kicked in. I fell asleep in Irish and Mr O Mahony gave out so I decided to go to the dentist, my sister signed me out and I walked down town, appointment for Thursday, after school. I walked home and it took me quiet some time, I was tired, weary, sick and missing you. I went inside and cried a little, got restless, watched "Scrubs" (I know you hate it but it was a good episode today). I text you five times from this morning til' now, I got no replies, oh well.

I'm going to try and do my english essay, take a bath, talk to my parents, cry and go to sleep. I miss you so much, I was watching MTV2 today and Biffy Clyro came on which made me so choked up and in pain, I couldn't even describe, it was the kind of pain where it feels like you've totally lost someone. I'm being so irrational seeing as it's just five days but I can't help it, I keep trying not to cry and then "Hey Jude" comes on and that's it, I'm gone. Biffy Clyro and The Beatles remind me of lying in bed with you before you went, of kissing your neck, of holding you while you slept. I should learn to be a big girl and not rely on anybody to make me happy, to make myself happy, but you are part of me and there is no way that I can be 100% content unless you're here with me, even in the country. Maybe if I heard from you more it might be less painful but I'm fearing by now (it's been a few hours since I last text) that your phone isn't working anymore.

It's not getting easier,
It's not getting easier...

Love,
Lucy.